Summer so far? Not too good.
I had a bit of a fight with one of my friends Sherella on the last day of school, but only because she was being such a bitch to me and can't get over the fact that I was kind of mean to her over the past year. I regret it a lot and have apologized numerous times, but she stil can't accept anything, but I don't need to be friends with her, she is a bitch otherwise and so it doesn't really matter I don't have to hang out with her.
My other friend Kelsey has been okay about it, but she's still on Sherella's side and she really ignores me whenever they talk to each other. Every time I wait for them to pause in their conversations to give my input or ask them about something else they keep telling me that I'm interrupting them. I mean really, I wait for the effing pause and then they tell me that they were 'about to say something'. And I'm really sorry I can't read your minds. But that shall change, I'm working on being a more proper girly-girl this summer and it's working, but I still don't have to hang out with them, even if I might miss them, I don't really care.
What they also do is they, and I had a problem with rejection from people I tell that I like them, so when I need for a comforting shoulder, they don't give it to me. All they do is stand there waiting for me to stop, and I have to ask for a hug or whatever. They say that they "Don't like touching people or being touched", and it's pure bullshit. Like my friend Lauren said once, you kind of need to be there for a friend when they need you most and I got that maybe once or twice from them.
Well it was fun knowing you, but you never try to contact me or anything, so it's in the bag, I guess it's over.
Other things? Well my friend Colleen is a super friend and I like her a lot, but I kind of got pissed at her when she tried to force me to look for a job somewhere that I probably wouldn't like, nor could legally work at, and I appreciate her concern for everything that she's done and all, but she mentioned that I don't have a choice with where I want to work, but I do. I really want a job, but nothing appeals to me so far. I kind of want to work in a small shop in a field that I know of, like some kind of anime store, or even a small bookstore, but no one's hiring that I know of...
Other things? Yes. At home, I have escaped from the madness of Mike (Guy who lives with me at my mom's. Father of my triplet sisters, and all around-ass. And no, he and my mom are not married.) being a bitch to come here. He was really being a total ass to me. I mean, he made me look for days for my shin guards for Field Hockey because I couldn't find them when I needed them, even though my mom said that we wouldn't go anyway because it was thundering, but then she tells me we're leaving and that totally pissed me off. And then when I finally remember that last year my shinguards were stolen and I didn't really care because the school gave us some home and away ones. I told them both that, so mom got me a new pair, but she told me to hide them from Mike. I makes no sense and I'm tired of living in fear of what Mike will do next. He's only taking out his stress on us because he can't get a job, but I mean look at the guy, he's so hard ot get along with. I mean we were (me and him) getting along fine until he blows through the roof and gives me a ton of crap about having to constantly keep my room clean (more than half the time, his room is dirtier than mine, but it's not like I don't have eyes, I can always see when it needs cleaning), how my opinions don't matter (whatever, when I go to college I am so out of there), and bunch of crap which brought out the best in me (which the idiot was hoping for) and I told him a load of stuff like I hated him and all this other stuff, and of course mom didn't help any. But hopefully this cooling off period will be better, and I'll just be better at keeping my head clear because nowadays I have a really hard time relaxing, but hopefully it shall change. I mean, my mom's supposed to be getting a job soon which will be good for us since Mike was the worker so mom could take care of my sisters (they'll be 5 in September) and he got laid off (because he's a bitch no doubt), but sadly mom may not take it because she's too attatched to the girls and they'd have to go to daycare god forbid. And Mike should be getting a job too, so that means I'll be home alone if they're all out when I get home from school. So that's good as far as relaxing, concentrating on homework, and writing shall go. Ahh, peace and quiet. But now if only I could get a cool job.
Well I haven't been doing much here in Georgia sadly. I wanted to write a lot off stuff, and although I've gotten to some fanfiction, I'm still annoyed with myself for not delving into writing some more novels before the summer is over, but oh well I was supposed to relax.... And it was enjoyable. I get to forum post a lot more and watch a lot of TV, something I don't get to really do when I'm at home. Ah, but I wish I did know when I would be going home because I need to read two books this summer and do a report on one of them, practice my clarinet for my audition when school starts, and see some of my other good friends. I think I want to have a small birthday party in New Hope, NJ. That would be fun...let's see who will fit in the car. Me, mom (driver), Ann, Lauren, Colleen, Ashley, & Vicky! Yay! It's perfect! Now I just need to notify mom. And I also still must ask my dad if I can go to Otakon this August too...
Well I'm done my vent for the day, there shouldn't be too much drama when I come home or while still staying in Georgia, so all shall be well. Yee, I'm talking to my mom and the girls now!
Well I'm done my vent for the day, there shouldn't be too much drama when I come home or while still staying in Georgia, so all shall be well. Yee, I'm talking to my mom and the girls now!